God Still Heals

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    1. Dear “Desperately Waiting”,

      I come up short for words to say to you. I apologize in advance if it seems like I am fumbling. I am not currently struggling with infertility, and so I don’t purport to have any insight into your struggle. Yet I know what it is and how it feels to long for something for a long time — to desire something that should come so easily and yet seems so elusive. And add to that the knowledge that God can but He won’t? To see patients wade into your office with their own children, to see mothers get pregnant so easily, to perhaps even see the rare parent who doesn’t care for their child as much as you would if you had your own… I have no answers for you, but I’d like to think I’ve caught a glimpse of your suffering.

      In such persistently painful times and situations of perceived deprivation, I have to remind myself that God is good and that yes, He still heals. Sometimes the only solace is to see the anguish against the backdrop of the goodness of God, as a way (albeit difficult) to contextualize and rationalize our pain.

      I don’t know why God is allowing you and your partner to go through this, and I really wish He wouldn’t. But He is God. And, though hard, we must trust Him. I don’t say this to be trite or pious or overly-religious — I say this as the only way I know how to get through life without going mad and without becoming bitter.

      You said that He has all power to give you a child but will He? I sure hope so.

      But if not?

      In the event that you still constantly find yourself denied, will you still continue to love Him?

      This is a tender issue. I hope I haven’t overstepped my boundaries or said anything that has come off as callous or off-putting.

      I just want to let you know that you are not alone and though I don’t know you, I feel your pain. You are justified in feeling whatever or however you feel.

      I’m praying for you. I pray that you will have your baby. I pray for wisdom as to you next steps — whatever they may be. I pray for God’s peace to envelop your heart. And I pray that you (and I) will trust Him regardless of what happens.

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